Being a military wife one would think I am adapted to uncertainty. It’s one of the most oddly consistent aspects of military life. Uncertainty and upheaval. We deal with lots of change, and change with very short notice.
But this is different. It started something like this, “It may be nothing, but…” And now I’m blinking back tears and admitting to myself that I am afraid.
Yes, I am afraid that this nontoxic uni-nodular goiter on my neck is not just a misshaped part of my thyroid gland. I am afraid of sitting in a hospital room tomorrow afternoon getting an ultrasound on “something that is probably nothing”.
I am afraid.
But I know that courage isn’t the absence of fear, and I know that love casts out fear.
So, I’m asking God for courage to face uncertainty. I’m waiting, and I’m resting in a profound love that holds the world together.