Have you ever felt that something monumental was about to happen and you wanted to remember details of that day or that moment?
That’s what I felt like today. A cold, rainy, fall day that somehow still held a tremendous amount of beauty. I took a picture of rain on some of the bright red leaves of a burning bush to the side of our porch to remember the moments of today.
Yesterday, the results of my neck ultrasound prompted the doctors to have me go in for a different test this afternoon. I recently came home from a Parathyroid Study. It was surprisingly one of the least painful medical procedures I’ve ever experienced. Probably the scariest part was when the technologist raised my bed up and my nose was inches away from a giant plastic plate that was going to take gamma ray pictures of my neck. It gave me a slight claustrophobic sensation, but fortunately didn’t last long.
So, now I’m back to waiting, again. I will have the results sometime next week. Depending on what the results are I may or may not need a biopsy. I’m at a strange place waiting for answers. I’m not afraid anymore though.
I can’t really explain it, but I just have this peace, this crazy encompassing peace that even if the worst thing happens (they tell me I have cancer) God isn’t going to let me walk through this life and these trials alone. Right now I don’t even know if the worst thing is going to happen, and there’s actually a very small probability of it happening. I’m just glad that while I am waiting, I have peace.