It’s not fear. That feeling of the surrounding air so heavy I can scarcely take a single breath. When a single tear drops and then is followed by another so slowly down my cheek.
Deployments are a bunch of unknowns bundled up into an untidy yarn ball. You pull a string and it just keeps unraveling.
I don’t want to unravel. I can’t afford to unravel.
The inspiration for the name of this blog (Love Casts out Fear) comes from I John 4:18 that begins “There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear.”
Whether my husband is here at home or in a distant land he is in his Creator’s hands.
That’s where I find my peace.
As for the that feeling, the can’t breathe part, the ache in my heart, the tears, the hard part…
that’s not fear; it is love’s growing pains of patience and endurance.